Well, there you go! My ten-year old is teaching me a lesson and didn’t even know it. TRUST your COACH! That’s what you pay them for, right? NO! I need to know WHY I am doing everything I am doing. I need to know what muscles are being worked and the purpose of each exercise. Suzie is following in my footsteps – she questions EVERYTHING! Sometimes, coaches program a movement that seems really out of left field. Sometimes, they program something that seems like DEATH will be upon you at any moment.
Tuesday night, I was doing my workout. It was an EVIL workout. After four rounds, I thought, this was a great workout, I should be able to be done, even voiced that outloud. Do you know what he said, I programmed FIVE rounds, get to it! UGH. I don’t like FIVE ROUNDS! I LOVE FOUR ROUNDS! Five rounds makes me feel like I am dying! Dying, I tell you. The last movement of every set was to run 400 meters, so I take off for my fifth run. I was pretty sure I was going to collapse right there on the street and no one was going to find. HA! Forget that they have to DRIVE past me to leave. No, the drama queen had taken over and I was going to DIE! I remember picking up my speed so I could at least DIE at the door, you know, so they could take me to the hospital. HA! Guess what? I didn’t die. I finished upright and out of breath. I even went on the softball field and watched my child’s game. I didn’t die in my sleep either.
As I was running, I kept telling myself that this ROUND FIVE is where athletes are born. This is where my stardom will come from. I don’t know if it is really true, but I do know every workout takes me BEYOND my comfort level. I know when I hit that place every time. Every time, I cuss him under my breathe. Every time, I FINISH! When I finish, I smile because I didn’t think I could do it, but he said I could, so I did. Here we are coming on the end of four weeks. I am stronger and faster! The scales are moving!
The best part is none of that. I looked in the mirror today. I have accepted my body for what it is. I love my body. This love is why I choose to eat right and exercise. Today, I looked in the mirror and I saw definition. DEFINITION that was not there just four short weeks ago. I have shirts that have always FIT, but I thought looked bad. This week, they look good! This week, people noticed the changes.
As I noticed these changes today, it took me back to a conversation I had with my coach right before I started the individualized program. He told me I had to trust him. I had to trust that he was going to push me knowing what MY end goals were. I had to let him do his job and I had to do my job. I had to eat right, and show up for my workouts. When I showed up, I had to give max effort. Letting go of control was not an easy thing for me. I have struggled immensely during the past month. We had to go through a battle with food. I needed to be eating ENOUGH, but my surgery caused some eating restrictions that needed to be addressed. I feel like we found the right combination of food and exercise FOR ME. There are still things that I need to do to improve, but it’s a journey. There are things that will change, but we FOUND the journey that is finally working.
Today, I emerge stronger, more confident and a little excited to see what I can accomplished by the end of 2015 with my coach’s help!