In the military world, we KNOW when he deploys or leaves for training, Murphy will move in and take up camp. If you are a Christ-Follower, you know that as you grow, the enemy gives you opposition, and the closer to your breakthrough, the harder it gets. If you are a Christ-following, military wife, you KNOW it seems you are never catching a break. Life for me is HERE! Except, he hasn’t even left yet. He is leaving for training in the continental US and Murphy has taken up camp for the past few weeks. Or it could be Satan. I have been trying to write a blog post about Carry the Load for a month. I am attending a huge training next week that could change the course of things. Battle Flag Ranch is having breakthrough after breakthrough – we are moving forward in a big way. I can’t seem to sit down long enough for me to do anything I need to do, nor comprehend and process all that is going on.
As much good that is going on around me, life is hard right now. - car accident, broken bones and sick children! In the middle of this, we had a death. I wrote a long piece explaining why my heart was broken. However, I am simply going to say this about it. IF you feel I don’t have the right to grieve, please keep it to yourself. If you feel the need to have me justify whether my relationship with the family warrants my heart being broken. Please don’t! I know you mean well, but it doesn’t help!
What does all of this mean? I AM TIRED! I AM ABSENT momentarily. I am writing this because I don’t want you to think I have abandoned ship. I am dealing with life and it is hitting much faster and harder than I ever remember. That is huge, because I have walked through some major things. You know, if Murphy hasn’t already moved, he will be doing so shortly. It could get comical.
My prayer is that soon, I can write again, letting you know about all the joys in life and lessons I have learned from the hardships. For now, I am going to focus on my family and breathing! My motto for the next few weeks is JUST BREATHE!